please don't do anything foolish[edit]

Hi there, I was allowed to go online (an unusual permission, but one they're allowing because I was so vocally concerned about you, and as a precaution, someone is in the room who can see what I type). I'm scared for you, and I hope that you won't do anything rash. My e-mail has now been activated, though I don't expect to be able to check it until I am discharged. Please seek help if you need it. We care for you deeply. --Kyok o 22:18, 8 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

You all right E@L[edit]

Echoing Kyoko's concern for you. We haven't met but I've seen your contributions in the Esperanza coffee lounge and you seem like the kind of editor WP needs. If you want to unburden your feelings to your fellow Esperanzans, please do. We will do our best to be supportive. Or if you need time away from WP to look after stuff in real life, we can understand that too. Only, please take care of yourself. Itsmejudith 22:42, 8 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Hi, I don't believe we've met directly either, but I've kept an eye on you and you're a great user. Don't get too stressed out about life, like me; it's not good for you (and I'm telling you this!?). As for what Kyoko said, I couldn't have said it better myself. You can rant to me all you want and I don't mind; in fact if you want to go right ahead and I will try to be supportive. Take care. Fr ed il 23:18, 8 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

What Happened to your Page?[edit]

Also, how can I get my signature to be like this B early451 talk instead of like this Bearly451 talk ? Thanks! Bearly451 talk 02:05, 9 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Okay, something weird happened. Bearly451 talk 02:05, 9 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Greetings[edit]

Saw you on the stress alerts page, and was wondering if you're alright. You're a really helpful person from my experience, and I really hope nothing is troubling you so much you'd do something bad. Anyway, I know life can suck sometimes but we all just have to hang in there! Hope to see you around Esperanza soon. ~~ Gromr e aper^(Talk)/_(Cont) 06:59, 9 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Wikiplomacy[edit]

Hey Editor at Large, regarding your talkpage, as Wikiplomacy is gone, would you be ok with me deleting your user subpage on the topic? I understand all this stuff is moving to another wiki or something, with existing pages being MfD'd - it's simpler to avoid the paperwork involved in that if you're ok with it. Hop you feel better soon! --Improv 07:02, 9 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Fw: personal update[edit]

Hi there, I'm now being allowed a limited time online during my hospital stay. I don't have the time to respond to everyone, so I have to make this fast. Doctors have increased my dosage of sertraline, and they hope the increased dosage combined with more frequent therapy sessions will help stabilise my mood. I hope to be out of here by the weekend. Please spread the word for me, OK? As a side note, I am extremely concerned about User:Editor at Large. Wish me luck. (from Kyoko, posted on my talk page.) — $PЯINGrαgђ Always loyal! 19:48, 9 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Hope all is well[edit]

Hey there, I hope all is going okay, or at least not terribly, or at least an improvement! Real life stress isn't cool, but I hope you get a chance to relax. -- Nataly a 20:15, 9 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Thinking of you...[edit]

We don't really know each other -- I've just seen you around, especially on riana's talk page. I don't know what's going on in your life, but I hope that you can find the strength and succor to overcome it. You're in my thoughts. -- Merope 20:33, 9 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

I echo Merope's thoughts. I hope everything gets better in your struggles. Please know that there is a lot of editors here that care for you, including me. -- P.B. Pilh e t / Talk 00:23, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Sorry!!![edit]

I would like to say, especially to you, that I am sorry about the whole thing to do with our beloved wikiplomacy, aka the marriage thing. Also by the looks of things on your talk page it looks like you aren't going to well but I want you to know that I am here for you. Jamo 00:54, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

you can e-mail me if you need to[edit]

Hi Editor at Large, you can e-mail me if you need to. I'm allowed a limited time online, and the staff is free to walk by and look at what I'm typing, so you should be aware of that. I know that I can just demand to be discharged if the docs are convinced that I'm not in imminent danger of harming myself, but that's probably not a wise idea just yet. I am sort of improving, and I hope that you will too. --Kyok o 02:12, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Hello...[edit]

Hello there! I hope you- I don't really know what to say.... I'm a bit naive about these things so... But cheer up, things'll be alright! Um... yeah. Bye now. Sorry to waste your time..--SU I T⁴² 03:53, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Whoever did this to you[edit]

Needs to go to jail, period. I am so sorry for being naiive about this situation. It must hurt tremendously, and my heart cries for that; but know that in my state and definately many others, you can sue and this bastard/bitch will go to jail for the crime(s) he/she committed FOR A LONG TIME. I am praying for you! Bearly451 talk 04:09, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

A Rose for You[edit]

To let you know that we love you, and miss you. You are in our thoughts and prayers. Bearly451 talk 04:21, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

You are in my prayers[edit]

Not sure what happened. Have some ideas. I hope things get better. I will pray for you. Please consider returning, you are admired and loved here. --Jayron 32 04:16, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

You are also in my prayers. I hope that this candle may provide some light for you in your time of need. Many Esperanzians are concerned, and we all pray you come back soon, as you are a valuable, talented editor. Thank you, Jam 01 07:33, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Holy crap[edit]

That sucks, a lot, and I sympathise with you. I hope you get better and come back to Wikipedia when this is all over, otherwise we lose a good person, and we don't want to happen. Will ^{(message ♪)} 12:28, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

I can't pretend I know how you feel[edit]

But I know that what has happened to you is terrible, and there are many thousands of people here who are deeply shocked and saddened by what we understand to have happened. I'm certain that I echo the feelings of many editors here when I say that we're missing you, but that you should take as long as you need to recover. Imoeng has sent his regards from MSN messenger - it was he who brough this to my attention, and I know he feels strongly about what has happened. All the best, and a healthy recovery -- M a rtinp23 12:42, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Hi there[edit]

I don't think I've interacted with you before; I came here from Will's userpage after he changed his wikimood. I'd just like to add to the above and convey my thoughts and prayers for you. Take care, this must be a terrible time for you and all I can say is I wish such idiots weren't allowed to live. – Ch acor 12:48, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Sorry to see this...[edit]

Hi Editor at Large. I'm so sorry to see that this has happend to you. I can't begin to understand what you're going through right now, but please, if there is anything that I can do, just let me know. My thoughts are with you, and I hope that things improve for you. Yours, Th ε Halo ^Θ 13:01, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Editor at Large, my dear friend, I'm terribly sorry to hear about what's happening. I can't begin to relate to what you're going through, but just know that I'm here for you, either on or off-wiki. I hope things improve for you, and we're all here to help you out. riana_dzasta 13:27, 10 November 2006 (UTC) P.S. I sent you an e-mail, before I found out what's going on - hope you received it. riana_dzasta 13:27, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

We're all really concerned for you here... so know that we all care! -- Nataly a 17:21, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Sorry to hear this...[edit]

You obviously have a bigger problem that what I'm experiencing right now. I hope you will stay strong.--E d ^{¿Cómo estás?} 18:57, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Hope things get better...[edit]

I know I cannot relate to what you have had happen, nor do I pretend to. I also can't say I'm the first one to say it, but I am sorry and want to let you know that everyone is here for you. --t e h tennisman 20:21, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

And another to add even more colour for you. Hope you come back soon because your a great person. Thanks for the help in the past. Come back soon! Randfan 20:43, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

This shows how much wikilove we (myself and Esperanza) have for you. Stay strong!

and another

Randfan 20:56, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

My Deepest Sympathy[edit]

I've talked to some people, and I think I have connected the dots as to what has happened. Know this; you have my deepest regrets and my prayers go with you. As out of place as this may seem, and as hard as it might be for you, I pray for whoever has committed this atrocity against you. Mine is a doctrine of forgiveness, as the Lord has taught me. That is not to say that they should not be prosecuted and punished, but I pray that they will see their errors and ask forgiveness of the Almighty. May you know the healing light of Christ, and may you be blessed with his strength for this trial and all others. Dooms Day34 9 20:58, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

I'm sorrry for you[edit]

Please excuse me for everything I say, but I feel really strongly about this the more I think about it.

DAMN THAT BASTARD/BITCH WHO IS DOING THIS TO YOU! YOU DON'T DESERVE THIS! IF THEY EVER GET OUT OF JAIL MAY THEY ROT IN HELL FOREVER (I BELIEVE IN FORGIVENESS, BUT SOMETHINGS ARE JUST HARD TO FORGIVE)! THIS IS TRYING, BUT I (AND ALL OF US) KNOW YOU CAN GET THROUGH THIS. YOU HAVE OUR FULL SUPPORT AND CAN ALWAYS COME TO US IF YOU NEED HELP! I HAVE A LOT MORE TO SAY BUT TOO MANY THOUGHTS ARE RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND TO MAKE SENSE OF. JUST KNOW THAT WE CARE DEEPLY FOR YOU!

Randfan 21:09, 10 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Life[edit]

,Dear friend, I hope that you are okay, I am so sorry to what has happened to you. Life is sometimes the hardest thing to overcome, but we all must do it. With a little help anything is possible. I hope that 1.You do what you wan't to remove your stress. 2. Understand that all of our prayers are with you.--^ॐ S e adog ^ॐ 00:45, 11 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Dear friend of mine...[edit]

Please don't do anything that would harm you or anyone else. There are no words in any language to express my anger towards the imbecile who dared do this. I only wish I lived near you so I could teach "it" a lesson. I and Riana (to name only two) love you very much. — $PЯINGrαgђ Always loyal! 00:49, 11 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Even though I don't know you personally, I'm a nice and caring person so I would like to echo Springeragh's words. I honestly cannot imagine that someone would have to go through such a thing. You can get help from the police if necessary, and remember that we are always here for you. I'm going through a rough phase in life too. Fr ed il 02:21, 11 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

I cry for you[edit]

I do not know everything that has happened to you, but please know that we are all here for you, always. We all love you very much. Talk to us about anything!!!!!-- C hi li fix 02:07, 11 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Support[edit]

I offer to you, my unconditional support. Dfrg.m s c ^{1 . 2 . 3} 04:46, 11 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

My friend, there are many assurances in this world. One is that bad things will happen. Sometimes there is little that can be done to prevent it. The next is that solving or fixing these problems requires work, patience and strength. We know you posses both, and you will pull though. The last is that everyone here has taken time and left you a message because we care about you as an editor and a person. Know this Editor at Large, and find peace. Dfrg.m s c ^{1 . 2 . 3} 06:02, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Oh. my. God.[edit]

I really sympathise with your situation, from what I can understand of what happened. You're in my prayers. I don't really know what else to say... ~ crazytal es_{(speak to me)} 04:53, 11 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Oh, wow.[edit]

I was only on Wikipedia for minor changes and reverting vandalism recently, so I didn't really have time to reply to my messages. Thanks for your quick reply and tips for beginners. That seems so insignificant that now you're faced with this situation. I really hope you will feel better, and that life will continue to go on for you. I can't imagine the hardship and pain that you're going through right now, and the only thing I can do, really, is just to pray for you. I pray that your heart and everything else will be healed, and that you will be comforted. Wow, I really don't know what to say to this situation... you must be going through so much torment. However, I know that beyond every valley there is a mountain... and that one day this will pass. Hang on! --lovelaughterlife♥ (user|talk) 16:26, 11 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

E@L's situation[edit]

Hi everybody,

I've just received an e-mail from Editor, which she requested I paraphrase here to explain how she is, and perhaps answer some lingering questions you all might have. This is mainly from an e-mail she sent to Kyoko, and forwarded to me.

She is very depressed, although she maintains that she's not going to do anything... harmful. She is, however, "in an incredibly deep spot right now. I have a lot going on, and it's all come to a head at once..."

She says she hasn't checked her messages, but says that "if stuff is happening regarding me please know I'm not ignoring it, i just haven't seen it all. all i've looked at/edited is my userpage today, but not logged in. (Fredil asked my IP if the link addition was vandalism or not and I responded, but that's all)". She also seems to think that only Kyoko, Spring and I have sent her messages - let's prove her wrong, guys! :)

Finally, "i don't mean to scare anyone, it's just that aleniating myself from everything to try and figure out how to cope seems to be the best thing right now."

And a bit of what she sent to me: "Thank you so much riana... you have no idea how much it helps knowing my wikifriends are there for me :-) I'm still not brave enough to check my messages, though (...) I'm really sorry about all this, really you have no idea how bad i feel for abandoning everybody when they've been so nice to me!"

If I may make a personal request, it is to please not discuss this matter further in a public area (eg the coffee lounge, each other's talk pages). This is merely a question of politeness, civility and appropriateness. But please, please continue to support her through this time.

Thanks everyone, riana_dzasta 16:44, 11 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

More support.[edit]

I hope that you become better soon and I want you to know that all of your wiki-friends are behind you all the way. You're in a tough spot right now, and need this time to heal. Just remember that we are all here waiting patiently for your return and however long you feel that you need, we will continue to be here. Take it easy, take it slow and take care.

Sincerely -SaturnYoshi ^{THE VOICES} 20:07, 11 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Wow[edit]

I never really knew you previously, besides a seeing a few messages at the coffee lounge, but I really feel strongly about this (I was nearly crying over my keyboard the day I heard about it). I hope you feel better soon, and that whoever did that to you gets what they deserve. Whoever this person is should obviously go to jail, or even more than that. I don't know everything that happened, but I feel quite terrible from what I do know. And, well, I guess that's most of what I want to say (though not quite everything about the person who did this to you). —The Gr e at Llama ^talk 20:07, 11 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

RfA thanks[edit]

Thank you for the extra feathers on my wings! Thank you so much, Editor at Large, for your support in my RfA, which passed on November 11, 2006, with a final tally of 82/0/2. I am humbled by the kind support of so many fellow Wikipedians, and I vow to continue to work and improve with the help of these new tools. Should you have any request, do not hesitate to contact me. Feel better soon! Best regards, Hús ö nd 21:31, 11 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Feel better![edit]

I think you're slightly back now. I just wanted to say that even though I barely know you (I think we met in the coffee lounge over hangman)that I feel for you. I just hope that you are on the way to recovery. Please feel better! H e mh e m20X6 22:06, 11 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

thank you[edit]

Thank you for your support...
Thank you ever so much, Editor at Large, for your kind words and understanding in my time of need. I deeply appreciate your support, and I hope to be there for you, should you ever need help. — Kyok o

Hello, Editor at Large, and thanks for your support, especially at a time when you are having your own difficulties. I'm slowly recovering, and I hope and pray that you will recover too. I'm always available by e-mail if you need me. Please take care. --Kyok o 23:51, 11 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

I'm back[edit]

... and I'm crying! I finally got up enough courage to check my messages, and I am so utterly overwhelmed that if this were real life you'd be hearing gasping unable-to-speak noises coming from me. I've been reading since 11:00, and it is now past 4:00 am -- I have to get up at 7:30 for a four-hour rehersal tomorrow, people! How dare you love me so much!

A full box of tissues later, and I am going to bed; but I promise I will start writing you an explanation for my absence tomorrow. I feel that with this outpouring of love and the worry I've caused I owe you that much, at least!

Again, thank you so much for your support. You can't have any idea how much it means to me and how much better it has made me feel!

I love you all! I couldn't ask for better friends, really! — E ditor at Large ^(speak) 09:08, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Oh, hell yes!!! riana_dzasta 11:04, 12 November 2006 (UTC) :Second that! Randfan 17:41, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Welcome back![edit]

Welcome back!

Welcome back, Editor at Large, we all missed you! I will keep my comments purposely vague here, but I know that you have had some rough experiences of late, and I hope that you will continue to recover. There's a saying about "time heals all wounds". I happen to disagree with that statement, but hopefully with time, the pain of what you've experienced will be less prominent in your thoughts. If you ever fall into one of those low moments, if you ever need a shoulder to cry on, please remember that we are there for you. We love you! --Kyok o 15:06, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Couldn't have said it any better myself, Kyoko. We're always here for you. Fr ed il ^{Shadows of Darkness} 15:08, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Randfan 17:30, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

By the way. You haven't let us down or abandonned us (and I will personally never let you think that.) If anything, we have done that to you. Justknow your in all of our prayers (alonng with Kyoko) and we're always here for you. Randfan 17:40, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Welcome back! I just violated a wikibreak (User:Ed/Statement) for this message, but who cares???!!! Anyway, nice to see you're getting back to normal life (partially), although your incident is without a doubt a life-changing experience. Unfortunately, I have to return to my Wikibreak--E d ^{¿Cómo estás?} 17:38, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

I just cannot get over you and Kyoko being better. Wait, is she better?.... Well, welcome back. Again. --_※ >HeWho ComesWithTheDawn !!<_※

		The Random Acts of Kindness Barnstar
		After all this you deserve it. Not only have you been kind in the past, but this barnstar has a Smiley on it. Hope you enjoyed the banquet ;) (inside joke, kinda). I'm with you. --_※ >HeWho ComesWithTheDawn !!<_※

I hope things get better soon, and we're glad to have you back! -- Nataly a 19:48, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

put a smile on your face, please?[edit]

[[Image:Csmile.png|thumb|Put a smile on your face. Count this as an award, please. Go here if you can't manage it by yourself:[1]. Best wishes!--_※ >HeWho ComesWith TheDawn !!<_※

okay I gave them out. If you didn't get one but supported her please tell me. The code is:

.== E@L support Barnstar ==.

		The Random Acts of Kindness Barnstar
		Though what you did is not so random, I, on behalf of E@L, award you this barnstar for your support. Randfan 19:10, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Welcome back, get better, still praying[edit]

It is good to have you back. I am still praying for you, and will keep you at the forefront of my prayers until you are through this thing. Keep editing, keep being at large. --Jayron 32 21:18, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

side note[edit]

I thiught this was such a horribly momentously terrible occasion that anyone here to support you should deserve a barnstar. Just wanted you to know that. I took the liberty upon myself, sorry if you wanted to make it personal. I guess you can give them another to show your gratitude:) --_※ >HeWho ComesWith TheDawn !!<_※

.== E@L support Barnstar ==.

this is the code for anyone who deserves it but didn't give one:

		The Random Acts of Kindness Barnstar
		{{{1}}}

Just thanking you[edit]

I have come to realize, of late, that in these times of darkness we draw strength from others. You have given me strength (even though I don't need it). So now I hope to return that strength to you so you may overcome this lightless event. Though it is horrible, one good thing came from it: you know now, more than ever before, that you have friends. I don't know if it was worth it, only you do. Know that you may always cry on my sholder if you need to. Randfan 20:07, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

[[Image:YellowSquash.jpg|thumb|A fruit representing what I want to do to the thing that did this to you. Randfan 20:07, 12 November 2006 (UTC)]][reply]

By the way, I liked your old userpage (the Egyptian one) more than the current :). I do like this current one more than the last, though. Randfan 20:07, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

re:to your above note[edit]

I reread your response to us all and I thank you for it. The way you feel about our ssupport must be akin to what we feel about you coming back and being kind of okay! I had a lot more to say but the elation of your return still fills me and doesn't allow me to think straight. Randfan 20:14, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

File:Cry-tpvgames.gif[edit]

This is what I'm doing right now, but of happiness thatt your back and of the reciprical because what happened to you. Randfan 20:17, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

your a great person. Randfan 20:20, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

The word banana is funny and whenever I'm sad I just think of it and it makes me feel better. Hope it does the same for you! :) Randfan 20:23, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

my care for you[edit]

We care for you! Randfan 20:48, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

The darker the shadow... Randfan 20:48, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

...the stronger the light! Randfan 20:48, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

The bigger a heart... Randfan 20:48, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

...the more it hurts and bleeds...

Randfan 20:48, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

I think this accurately depicts your situation, but I don't know if it is a good thing... Sorry. Randfan 20:49, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

re: aah![edit]

Chuckle*. Just glad your okay! If you ned help, just tell me. I hsven't gone through something even close to this (thank God!) but I'm better than no one, I think... Randfan 20:56, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

I think E@L needs to archive this into a "support" archive. Bearly451 talk 21:06, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Ditto. And to you, E@L, WE ALL WIKILOVE YOU!!!!!!! Randfan 21:09, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

Strong buck[edit]

You truly are as strong as this buck, E@L! Randfan 21:14, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]

And you have a heart **ten times** larger! Randfan 21:14, 12 November 2006 (UTC) the colors represent the amount of light compared to darkness in the omniverse. Randfan 21:28, 12 November 2006 (UTC)[reply]